This is a copy of a talk I gave in sacrament 4/2012. Some people have asked to have it. I guess I have you all fooled that I know what I'm talking about or something, but anyways...here it is.
Only three short weeks ago I took my son to his soccer
game. Clean, bright uniforms
glistened in the warm sun. The other kids on his team were happy, cheerful and
full of energy. The game started and the day was looking promising. As we all
know, here in Utah, the weather can change instantly. Coming into the half we
were losing 1-2, but for our team, 1 is a pretty good number. The whistle blew and the teams ran to
their coaches. The referee placed the ball in the middle of the field. Then the
winds began to blow. With no one touching the ball it began to roll faster then
it ever had. A few kids began to chase it down but failed. After a passerby
stopped it, the boys had to cling onto it so that it didn’t start rolling
again. The game resumed. The wind
would have been a welcomed teammate if it hadn’t been blowing the opposite
direction of our goal. Try as they might the kids could not kick the ball hard
enough to cut through the powerful wind. However, the opposing team only had to
get it lined up to their goal and just watch as the wind took over and scored
for them. The seconds began to tick away slower and slower. Those eight year
old boys were feeling the effects of running into the wind, their shirts
filling up with air behind them and holding them back like a parachute. They
were weary, they were giving up. The dust blew hard in their faces, making it
almost impossible to look up towards our goal. The other teams goalie even
stopped guarding our net and began leaning into the wind just letting it hold
him up. From the sidelines the parents shouted encouraging things, only to be
drowned out by the wind. We knew the odds were not in our favor. This was
obviously not a fair game. We all kept asking the same thing. “When will they
call this game? When will this be over?” I then took out my phone and sent the
following revelation to my husband…”Score1-7, This game would make the best object
lesson for a talk on adversity.”
Today, I was asked to talk about adversity. In particular, how can we grow from
adversity and trials? From my own life, I have benefitted from my trials by first
strengthening my understanding of why we have trials. This perspective has
given me greater strength during adversity as well as being able to more fully
learn the lessons that my Father in Heaven would have me learn. I would like to
share with you a few of these thoughts.
We never know WHEN adversity will come. It may come quietly,
piece by piece and rest on our shoulders until we finally realize that we are
carrying a load to heavy. It may strike out of nowhere, suddenly throwing our
life into a dizzy tailspin.
We never know HOW adversity will come. It may be brought on
by things out of our control, bad choices made by someone close to us, a
natural disaster or shattered dream that did not come true despite our every
effort. It may come of our own doing. A small and easily justifiable sin that
went unnoticed until it grew too large to ignore any longer.
One thing is very clear; no one is free from adversity. It is a fundamental part of our earthy
existence.
While Joseph Smith was imprisoned in Liberty jail he
received revelation on adversity. I often refer to this short chapter, Doctrine
in Covenants 122 verse 7, the Lord describes to Joseph Smith what could
likely be his worst-case scenario…
And if thou shouldst be cast into the pit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death
passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the deep; if the billowing surge conspire against
thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and
all the elements combine to hedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws
of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee,
But then he adds these words of
comfort…
I have heard many words used in place of the word trial
(i.e. adversity, tribulation). I think the word the Lord chooses to use here
“experience” is interesting and makes me recall a time earlier in our marriage.
After many sacrifices and pain staking years in school, Ryan finally graduated.
Not only did he have his law degree he also had his MBA. With so much education
under his belt we were very optimistic about his career opportunites ahead. He
had a handful of interviews with great companies and firms. One by one the
calls we had expected came in, but they did not bare the news we wanted to hear.
Everyone returned with the same underlying statement. “You have a great amount
of education but you lack experience.”
These Employers understood that even with vast amounts of
knowledge, there are key elements and skills to their occupation that can only
be acquired through experience. Isn’t is understandable then that while we are
here on earth as Gods and Goddesses in training, that there are crucial attributes we will only be able to obtain through experience? We can read our
scriptures, attend seminary and institute, participate in study groups and
become wonderful scriptorians. However, without experience or trials we cannot fully
develop the Godlike attributes becoming a deity will require. Wouldn’t it be
ashamed if we got that far in the interview process and then were told that we
had enough knowledge but lacked experience.
Brothers and Sisters, we are so blessed. We have a Father in
Heaven who knows and is actively aware of us. He knows exactly what individual experiences we each need to reach our
full potential. I like renaming my trials, experiences. It helps me to keep
an eternal and more optimistic perspective. It is looking at your situation
with your focus on learning something new about yourself.
At this stage
of my life I am having a very unique experience, one I never dreamt I would
have. I am raising not only a large family but two very special boys who have
come to us from extremely complicated and dire circumstances. My children may
be shocked to hear this but I must profess, I do not know what I’m doing! Not
only have I never been a wife or a mother before, I’ve never dealt with the
unique and complicated issues I have to deal with now. There are no clear-cut
answers to most of our issues. We often do not fit in any box and I’m forced to
start from scratch. I have few people who understand my families unique issues.
At times this seems like too much. The load seems too heavy to bare. Sometimes I get swallowed up whole in
the enormity of this task I have been asked to undertake. I have cried deep
into the night, sure that my motherly resume was mixed up with someone much
more capable then me. I was always
taught that the Lord would never give you any trial too large to handle. In the
past year I have learned that is not true. He
gives us many trials too heavy and too large to even try to manage…Alone.
We must learn to let Him help us or look like idiots trying to do it ourselves.
I laughed when I brought a dresser from IKEA and took out the instruction. No
words were written to describe the steps of assembling it, only pictures. The
first picture was a stick man trying to do it alone. He had a frustrated face
drawn on him and the dresser had broken. A big “DO NOT” symbol was drawn over
him. Then another picture was underneath. Two stick figures, both with happy
faces and a well put together dresser. In the corner of the picture was a check
mark indicating this was correct way to get the job done. What a great reminder
to me of the ease that will come when we seek help. This is how He keeps me
close. I cannot afford to stray away. I need His love and guidance too dearly. Although this experience is challenging,
I know this is where I am supposed to be. I am having the exact experience that
my Father knew I needed to have. I
can only look to Him, the perfect parent. I know that there is no person or textbook
that can give me the right parenting advice. I repeat, I do not know what I am
doing. But I know He knows what I should be doing and what I am capable of
doing and I constantly seek out his council.
I have realized that in my darkest moments I have been
listening to the wrong voice. That complete and lonely darkness is where Satan
is most comfortable and wants to convince us to remain there with him. We can
make our own experiences harder by giving into him. Remember that the Spirit teaches by humility and that the adversary
teaches by self-pity. He may place strong thoughts into your head such as
“If I was a better mother this would not have happened!” or “I will never be
able to accomplish this, I’m just not smart enough!” I have learned to examine
my thoughts and ask myself…”Is this something my Father in Heaven would say to
me?” The answer is usually very clear. On hard days when my husband asks me what’s
wrong I have been known to say “Satan has a lot to say to me today and I’m
listening” When I realize his presence interfering with my opportunity to grow,
I can push him away and return my thoughts to the Spirit. My mind begins to
think clearly again when not pre-occupied with self-doubt. The pity party is
over and I feel teachable again.
Though we may not get
to choose which experiences we will have our free agency lets us choose how we
handle our experiences.
Elder Uchtdorf said “It is our reaction to adversity, not
adversity itself that determines how are life story will develop.”
We can look at the Lehi’s family for two examples of
reacting to adversity. Laman, Lemual and Nephi were raised in the same home
with the same parents. When Lehi was commanded to leave Jerusalem and take his
family into the wilderness, new experiences where presented, new chances for
all his sons to grow. Nephi , full
of faith and willing to completely succumb to the Lords plan for him, sought
answers from God through pray. He exercised patience, humility and a love of
God that in turn strengthened his spirituality and understanding of Gospel
Principles. Laman and Lemuel,
presented with the same experience, whined and complained about the wrongs they
felt had been done to them and how unfair life was. By continually crying “victum” and refusing to learn the
lessons their loving Father in Heaven needed them to learn, the seed of
bitterness was planting in their hearts and nourished by anger, resentment and
lack of faith.
We all know what became of these people. Nephi left his
brothers and took those who would follow Gods commandments with him. They
became known as the Nephites and prospered because of their faithfulness. Those
who would choose to live a life at Laman and Lemuals standards became known as
the Lamanites. A wicked, violent people, cursed of the Lord. An important part of this story
should not be overlooked. Here we can see that
the consequence to our reaction to adversity does not only affect our own self
but those close to us, and for generations to come.
We must
remember that we are always setting an example and those who love us will
follow are lead. If we can not exercise our faith and we break under the
pressure of adversity our children will do the same. Let us look to our Savior for this example. He suffered all
adversity and by His faith and love for us succumbed to the will of our Father.
A greater understanding of this love and the atonement can help us to overcome
our own adversity. The atonement was not
just put in place to find forgiveness for our sins but to lift our burdens,
relieve our pain and bring peace to our souls. The Savior himself said…
Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you:
not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it
be afraid.
The peace that the spirit can provide for us during our
most challenging experience on earth, is nothing the world can give or even
comprehend. I know this. I know this
because I have felt it. At times the winds have pushed me back so hard that I
felt I could never reach my goal. The dust continues to kick up and blind me
from seeing what I need to see. I have felt udderly alone, unable to hear words
of encouragement around me. I have asked “ When will this end? This is not
fair!” But when I turn to the Lord, all the pain and weariness is lifted and I
am filled with peace.
Abide In Me
When you abide in me
Then I’ll abide in you
My words in your heart
Oh, child believe
That when you seek my face
and make me your first love
Then all of the rest
Will be taken care of
Then I’ll abide in you
My words in your heart
Oh, child believe
That when you seek my face
and make me your first love
Then all of the rest
Will be taken care of
Don’t worry what the future may
hold
For I have overcome the world
and all these things I speak
are so your joy may be complete
When you abide in me
For I have overcome the world
and all these things I speak
are so your joy may be complete
When you abide in me
